Do Life Challenge 2012

It started out so well and went downhill quickly.  Wednesday I had a major anxiety attack and I’m still suffering the fallout and depression from that.  When attacks occur I just want to curl up all alone and eat to feel better.  It only makes me feel worse.

But today is a whole new day, right?  I started out healthy, had a smoothie, don’t feel too fragile.  My write up for this week for the Challenge would look awful, so I think I’ll skip it and concentrate on the here and now.

My greatest joy right now is reading how well everyone else is doing!

Today was tough.  I’ve had an anxiety attack which lasted almost all day and I want to self-soothe by eating.  I managed NOT to go out, though. which is a plus.

1. Didn’t go out to eat even though I really wanted to.
2. Did one quote and got two small projects in for work.
3. Did my plyometrics workout.
4. Got some more reading done.

The first day I’m all pumped up, eager to work out, determined to make changes.  The second day is harder.  I’m sore and have P90X Plyometrics to look forward to.  Yuck.  I HATE Plyometrics.

Time for an attitude change.  I may hate Plyometrics, but I LOVE when it is over.  I feel all virtuous and triumphant and the shower afterwards is heaven.  So the sooner I start it, the sooner it is over and I can be feeling that endorphin rush, right?

Who knew that writing 4 good things that happened during the day would be so difficult.  We focus on the bad things and can’t even remember the good ones.

1. I almost went and got a burger, but came home instead and had homemade turkey soup which was really tasty.
2. The sun came out today and there was blue sky.
3. I had lots of time to read my current book.
4. I found out I have several new projects coming in very shortly.

I’m Diane, 45 and live in Washington State.  Over the past year I’ve lost 70 lbs, but I’ve plateaued at around 207 and want to get the remainder of my weight off.  Last summer was awesome, for the first time my husband and I did tons of hiking and I started running.

Things have slid a bit, but I’m back to being motivated.  I’m doing P90X while the weather is bad, with occasional runs if it isn’t too slick.  Though Ben lives in Vancouver, which can be colder and wetter than here, so slacking because of the weather is a pretty poor excuse.

Ii did my pushups this morning - I can do 20 at a time, but only on my knees.  Maybe a goal for next month will be to move off my knees!

Most of my goals for this month revolve around food.  Food is my bane.  I use it to self-comfort.  My big problem is running out for lunch, hence the no restaurant food. 

At midnight January 31, 2012 I will have:

• done all of my scheduled P90X workouts,
• not had any alcohol to drink at all,
• not eaten any food from a restaurant,
• written down my food intake in my journal every day, and 
• spent 30 minutes a day writing in my journal or blog.

I’m going to track each day on this blog.

I have been slacking on my workouts, doing them halfheartedly or not at all.  Plus my DH and I have been drinking too much and I’m feeling the need to back off and clean myself out.

I work from home, so going out for lunch is my “me” time.  It is also expensive and full of calories.  I need to find something else I can do for “me” time.

The best way to know how many calories you are eating is to track them.  I use MyFitnessPal and was using it successfully for 6 months while I lost 70lbs.  

Writing is an outlet for me.  I have several blogs and a journal, all of which have been neglected, so I want to write for at least 30 minutes every single day in one of them.